shitty

Life in school seems quite the same. Lifeless as always. Frankly saying this is my first class that I ever dislike.I mean Ive always liked my class in highschool. The people were always SUPERB.But this time its like everyday I have to keep hoping for the next day to be better. What cud get any better? When Im all moody in the morning theres nobody to cheer me up.

Unlike last last 2 or 3 years especially last year. People naturally make me laugh no matter hw moody i cn get. They never failed in attemp to make me laugh. I got some members to lepak with. I had my close guy friends n girlfriends.But now its like everythings's gone. I mean I realised I didnt really apreciate thos things n the people I had but when they're gone.Now only Im pondering my mind with clouds of thoughts of THEM.

This the year where I just had a turning point. Its like god's giving me signs to go grow some balls & move on.To actually acomplish my goal to school besides meeting my friends and that is to actually STUDY. Thats why he took all that away. So Friendship maybe not that important to me now. I have only afew ppl I look up to in school. Although I do hv friends but it feels like Im alone with evrybody around me. I just dont want to be leaving this school with noo good memories. I mean most of THEM left me. All in all I feel lonely and feel like Ive been forgotten by my loved ones. Lifes so screwd now that I cnt think of any good things that cud come in my way in months time. How long more must I fake that Im-all-fine now when everthings just shitty. This is too much! ='((((((