clear

So clear now that I need them more and more

each day.They're the best thing I had

& when they were there

I had no idea.

shitty

Life in school seems quite the same. Lifeless as always. Frankly saying this is my first class that I ever dislike.I mean Ive always liked my class in highschool. The people were always SUPERB.But this time its like everyday I have to keep hoping for the next day to be better. What cud get any better? When Im all moody in the morning theres nobody to cheer me up.

Unlike last last 2 or 3 years especially last year. People naturally make me laugh no matter hw moody i cn get. They never failed in attemp to make me laugh. I got some members to lepak with. I had my close guy friends n girlfriends.But now its like everythings's gone. I mean I realised I didnt really apreciate thos things n the people I had but when they're gone.Now only Im pondering my mind with clouds of thoughts of THEM.

This the year where I just had a turning point. Its like god's giving me signs to go grow some balls & move on.To actually acomplish my goal to school besides meeting my friends and that is to actually STUDY. Thats why he took all that away. So Friendship maybe not that important to me now. I have only afew ppl I look up to in school. Although I do hv friends but it feels like Im alone with evrybody around me. I just dont want to be leaving this school with noo good memories. I mean most of THEM left me. All in all I feel lonely and feel like Ive been forgotten by my loved ones. Lifes so screwd now that I cnt think of any good things that cud come in my way in months time. How long more must I fake that Im-all-fine now when everthings just shitty. This is too much! ='((((((

First Day of Form 4(2010)

Wow time really passed by that fast huh.Time..can u not go that fast.cos im mising the moments as they pass. Hello Im in form 4 already.Time has got to be kiddng me.I mean I feel like Ive been in form 2 just months ago.Why am I growing up so fast?

First day of school was Okay. Had so many hugs from alota people. Atleast they did miss me though. xDMan Ive been abit sel fish taday.I was busy with my FRIENDS only till I didn even bother to go n aproach those who i hvnt seen in ages.haha.Sckrew it! Neways,only a quarter from my previous class got into the same class as me. Currently listening to Her Diamonds by Rob Thomas.Just listened to Time by chantal.God these songs are deep though.

It made me reminicse most of the good times I had last year.Seriously Form 3 was the best year. I was surounded by my loved ones.Lots of em. Iv mentioned them on my previous post.Anyway as I recall,I had --> Teng+Norman,dda,saif,ika,hakim,tia,aza,mark,amer,amy & few other bunch.Goodnes I miss bein in the same class with those who used to be in the same as me.

ESPECIALY 'THOSE' who always&always hung out with me nearly every single day last year.Who would ponteng class with me whenever I wanted,those who normally gossip with me bout love life & sumother craps,those who were keen on spanking me for fun,those would laugh their asses of with me like theres nobodys business. God i miss them though i will most likely see them in school but its not like we'll ever hang out likelast time.Why must things change so quick? It seems now Ive to prepare for the worst.Some of them will be leaving me soon they're only here for temporary.Oh NO!!! :'(( (1 by 1 leave)

Though Im quite please with my current class.The thing is Im confused.I mean I want to take sub science I dont want arts. I find sub is more exciting.Hoping mama cud make a letter for the school soon. If i dont get accepted than Ill just stay in my current class.Atleast I still have Hakim,Adman,Sam&Amer.Hakim didnt want me to change he insisted on me remain in that class with him.god i syg that fool.But still, it all depends on fate.Sckrew you now fate!Cant we have things the way it used to? sheeeesh!!


I used to listen to this ALOT last year :'} I get ghoosebumps whenever I listen to this alone.

HER DIAMONDS BY ROB THOMAS

New years eve

That evening when we got home.We started cleanig the house cos guess were comin dt night.Mamalily & mama were busy in the kitchen.While we kids were tad busy in the lving room vacuming and wiping things etc.

When night strikes,aunty aezy n family arrived.They were quite early though.So we started to have dinner with them first.Half and hour later aunty azra n uncle shukri came.Than moksu n family came.Alittle later than abang nash & kakak plus her friends came.Than the whole house started to chaos.

More tempting foods were served.We had this halal beer & it tasted like crap.I mean its like beer but theres no alcohol in it but still I managed to enjoy it justalil bit.However,all hours long were filled with laughter,talking,noise,more laughter,talking n more eating plus drinking.I think ive gained justabit due to that.Neways when middle night nearly strikes,all of us started to gather in the tv room.And then..countdown yaww!!

By the time countdown was over.Lotsa wishes n hug were thronged..While I was busy recording the whole bits than they had this funny toast thing with that beer.the whole bits were chaos and Funny I tell you.But all in all it was one of the best nights of 2009.